deep thoughts

methinks about the concept of god whilst folding bulletins today, and I think that i have a rrived at a logical conlusion. People ask "if god exists then why does he let bad things like war and poverty happen," and "If god wants us to love him then why does he not make it known that he exists?" I think i may have an answer. God does not want us just to love him, he wants us to have faith and love him based on that faith. that is why things like war and poverty happen and that is why he does not make it widely known that he exists. One of the first things that comes to mind when you think about the judeo-christian God is the saying "god is love," and if this be true then god exists between each and every human; in addition, god then, is something intangible and there cannot be any evidence that he exists other than the love between human beings for each other.

Another reason why god cannot be proven is the the infinate amount of questions that there are to be answered. Science attempts to uncover the mechanical nature of the universe and everything in it, but with every answer more questions are raised. for example the origin of life is attempted to be explained by the theory of panspermia which states that organic molecules such as proteins and nucleic acids arrived on earth via a foreign object such as an asteroid. If this is indeed the case then how did the organic molecules form? where did they come from? how did they get on said foreign object? where did this foreign object come from? there is an unending cache of questions to be answered in the sciences.

and the moral of today's story is: always write an outline first. There is more to this story, but the end escapes me at the moment. perhaps it will some back

peace and carrots y'all
Bandit Out

August 20

I just wanted to take the time to write about the people that I love, and why I love them and what not. and i figured now would be a good time to do so because their birthdays were last week.

First of all, Grandpa Bandit (papa). Papa turned 81 on Thursday, and I am really grateful that he is around! I remember all the time I used to spend with him when I was in elementary school and how he would cut apple for my snacks and let me watch TV after I was done with my homework. When I think of why my grandpa is so special to me, I think of all the things that he does for me and my family, like take us to school, taking care of us while mom and dad were at work, taking us to get haircuts when my brother and I were really little. I think the thing that i miss most is going to church and sitting with him on Sunday mornings. My job at church requires me to be in Fresno for the mornings on Sundays so there really isn't any practical way for this to happen, at least for the foreseeable future.
Anyway Papa is an ornry old dutch man and its pretty funny when he gives people a hard time. He's very particular, so sometimes it's a little frustrating whenever I help around the house or something, but the time spent with him is well worth it! I hope that Papa is around for many more years to come cause I love him so much!

The other person that I would like to write about is the grasshopper's little Cee. she too had a birthday on thursday. Its amazing how goofy and cute Grasshopper's little girls are! Cee especially. It's a weird experience watching your cousins grow up, I vaguely remember when Cee was born and I got to hold her! But then I dropped her and haven't been able to hold a baby ever since. maybe thats why Cee is especially silly... Just kidding, that never happened.

anyway those are some of the people I love!!! peace and carrots y'all
Bandit Out...

idk bout this new blog color... what do you think?

i feel high- but i'm not on anything...

for all of my devout followers (HA) i am not on any drugs. i just had the weirdest experience ever. i wanted to WRITE!!! can you beleive it? so what caused this sudden inspiration of creativity, you ask? METALLICA!!!

my mom wanted some peace and quiet so naturally i wanted some chaos, and i thought the best course of action would be to thump my brain with Fight Fire with Fire, and boy did my bran get thumped. (note: in order to enjoy this experience for yourself buy some top notch headphones, get fight fire with fire, and "turn the volume to 11," as they say)

it was a torrential downpour of heavy metal... EPIC!!!

church today

so i went to church today, and i figured i might remember what the message was better if i wrote it down since they don't have the readings to follow along where i work.

so the second reading was concerning Elijah, and that his service to God was becoming wearisome and he began to pray asking God to take his life. when he was finished there was water and "hearth cake" at his side and a voice told him that the journey ahead would be too wearisome if he was to eat nothing. and so Elijah ate and walked to mount horeb.

The Gospel was a little less fantastic so i kinda lost myself in thought. i do remember something about their ancestors eating Mana from heaven and dying, but if you eat the Jesus bread then you will have eternal life.

during the sermon, i like Fr's opening statement about how if we did away with anger then there wouldn't be any talk radio or very many news outlets. other than that it was mostly are you going to conform to the culture around you and taking the message to the people and stuff like that. pretty cut-and-dry I'd say...

anyway, one of the my many pet-peeves are electronic drums in church. they are sooo unimpassioned!!! i wish if they would get a little inspiration for church music by listening to some motley crue or something. now that would be a service to remember!!!

Man, I really need to brighten this page up with some pictures!!!

I'm back!!!

Howdy y'all after an extended leave of absence I have something that really tears at my moral fibers to write about.

Last week Harvard Girl and I were kickin back at work and she was reading an article on an "Abortion Boat" that sails around to third-world countries and gives abortions to pregnant women. She then proceeded to say "Oh, I want to be on that boat so bad!!" What the flip people???

I will be the last person who tries to tell someone what they should think- we are all entitled to our own opinions, but abortion is a topic that is uncomprimisable. The murder of 50 million Americans and countless others is a blight on the human race, and it is somethingg that I feel to strongly about to let it stand at "oh wouldn't it be great to go sailing on an abortion boat??"

I half excpected as much out of someone as socially liberal as Harvard Girl, but her reasons justifyingthe pro-choice position are almost as absurd as the the desire to go sailing around and helping doctors conduct abortions.

"what if I got pregnant..." what if you get pregnant? for most pregnancies there is a decision that precedes the "what am I going to do now that I am pregnant decision" decision. you know your own situation better than anybody else, so it is up to you to analyse whether or not you are ready to have a baby. The "Ok, I'm ready... lets do this" is pretty much a concession that you have thought about it... you just signed the dotted line. However there are a few exceptions to this rule, and I hate to say it as much as the next person... rape. Nothing good comes out of rape because it is the perverted action of sick individuals. Nevertheless, there are alternatives to abortion. "I don't want to carry around the baby of the freak who did this to me..." okay Magua- cut the Grey-Haired man's heart out, and kill his seed so he knows that he will be the ancestor to no one. What did the child do to be brutally ripped out of the the one place where it could thrive? What hand did the baby have? having an abortion to "solve" the problems of a rape only creates more problems, because this child isn't just the fruit of his loins. When you have abortion you dispose of a part of yourself too.

But what do I know? I'm just a man, I could never understand what it means to be pregnant. This is true, but that doesn't mean that abortions don't affect men at all. After all, what choice does a pregnant woman have when her boyfriend leaves her when he finds out that she is pregnant? Well I've got news ladies, chivalry isn't necessarily dead. Not all men are detached jerks who leave the women to care for their children. One of my best friends is one of these stand-up guys who works pretty much full time and takes care of his baby, and although I haven't come accross the oportunnity, I would like to think that I would be the same way as well.

Anyway, I've run out of steam, but there is so much more that i have to say on this subject, and so many ways to say it. Hopefully Harvard Girl will say something next week to provoke such an emotional response as to drive me to blogging. I would just like to end with saying that abortion will always be the wrong decision, and that there are better alternatives to abortion.